Epic. Fail. … I need to stop fighting with myself and being pissed off that I can’t say what I want to. Maybe if I just said it I would be more happy.
What is time? Many people will reply with one word “money”, but is time really money? If time is money then money should be time; this however, is not so.
Time and money must be one of those square and rectangle things. A square is a rectangle but a rectangle is not a square. So time is money but money is not time. This possibly simple math “fact” always confused and bothered me. First they teach you that if a=b then b=a; but if it’s squares and rectangles instead of “a” and “b” then we’ll just ignore the whole reflection thing, it’s just not true anymore. A rectangle is a rectangle and a square is a square, a shape cannot be both otherwise your definitions suck and should be rewritten. A square has four sides of equal length and a rectangle has four sides with opposite sides being the same length and adjacent sides being of different lengths.
Anyways, back to what I was saying; money is not time, if it was then friendships, relationships, children and trust could all be bought. Though in some places and cases this may be true, for the majority of the world it is not. As long as time is money, those with more money (and income) than they could ever spend will live many more lifetimes than those of us with little money. What if money really was time and by having enough of it you could skip parts of time, make them go faster; would you? Lets say you find one person you really like at the moment, with enough money you should be able to “buy” the entire dating experience and know if that person was right for you or not; skip right to the wedding. Next you could spend enough money that kids are born nearly instantly, or maybe even start them off at five years old. No infants who do nothing but eat, scream, poop, puke, cry and wiggle around. A lifetimes worth of experience could be “purchased” for a medium fortune and at 25 to 30 your kids could be college aged and you would be smart as someone who was 40, 50 or even 60. If you could do it would you? I wouldn’t.
Time is time and money is money; if you chose to make money with your time, so be it. What you do with your time is always your prerogative. Time is never wasted unless you let it be wasted, but then it’s not waste is it?
I’ve been trying to think of something to post about recently and nothing really comes to mind; except that I’ve been actively trying not to post anything. Life has been pretty busy around here: get up, go to work, eat dinner, play EverQuest some, go to bed … repeat. Once in a while I manage to go out shopping or out somewhere just to do stuff. At least work is going well, I think it’s really awesome and I’m really excited to be doing what I am. Not many other jobs in the world could be more satisfying that where I am now; except maybe a professional slacker / procrastinator :p though I’d get bored of not learning anything new.
A couple weeks back, maybe it’s only been a week now (the memory is horrifying enough that I try to forget xD), I somehow managed to convince myself that recording me singing and giving it to someone was a good way of finding out if they liked me. Yea, never again. ABBA was probably a bad choice anyways; bad song + my horrible singing = less friends. Oh well, I’ll live; perhaps I’ll just be single for a while. It was a bad idea from the beginning but I kinda maybe liked her and wanted to see if there was any hope; it’s a little lonely here.
There’s still one person I actually do really like but unless they say something nothing will probably happen. They’re too awesome and amazing for me to risk messing with our friendship or whatever it is we have. So if you read this; you are awesome, beautiful and I’ll always be here for you. The reason I’ve been sort of actively ignoring my blog is because I kept wanting to put something up to express how I felt and I knew there would be names involved; something is better than nothing and if you are happy then bugger all the rest, I’m happy too.
Suppose I’ll get off before I go and say something stupid or post a recording of my horrifying singing. Don’t anyone go out and play with the chains without me. 
Though airplanes and airports, not so much. I had the pleasure of attending my cousin Caryn’s wedding this last weekend; it was fantastic! Everyone did an amazing job putting it together and I’m glad I was off work and could attend. Thinking that the next wedding I attend with either be mine or I’m going to have to learn to be a preacher because sitting in the audience at every wedding couldn’t be nearly as fun as standing up where everyone is looking at you. (: This is the third wedding I’ve been to, that I can remember, and put together between all three of them I’ve finally had a piece of wedding cake. =D It would be the strangest piece of cake ever created if you were to put all of the pieces and bites together haha.
The flight out to Colorado from El Paso, TX was mostly uneventful; aside from my “driver’s license extension” not being a valid form of ID in Phoenix, AZ. On the way back, I think they were about to give me pilot’s wings because I spent nearly the entire day on an airplane. First the flight from Denver, CO to Salt Lake City, UT … wasn’t so bad of a flight but it was late by a couple hours. After taxiing all the way to the runway they changed our flight plan to add another ~500 miles because of the weather; what’s awesome about that? we didn’t have the fuel to make the flight now, so it’s back to the gate for more fuel. Took an hour to get back to the gate and refueled. ><
Landing in Salt Lake City, UT two hours late caused me to miss the flight from Salt Lake City to El Paso. No big deal, I'll catch the next one ... not quite. There are no more flights to El Paso that day. ): End up on a flight to Dallas/Fort Worth after sitting in Salt Lake City for a hour and a half. Sweet! I love seeing more of Texas (lol ><). From Dallas/Fort Worth at least I have a flight to El Paso; but there's more waiting, and changing gates three times, and the plane going out of service ... so finally the plane leaves at 10:45 pm or so and we land in El Paso at 11:45. I'm almost home! 8 hours after I should have been. Oh, and at every airport I went to, besides El Paso, to get from one terminal to the other (each flight was a separate airline) I had to go through security. Must be pretty good at emptying my pockets and taking off my belt by now .
Had to edit this to add, I think my favourite part of the wedding ... besides the fact that it was a wedding between my cousin and her new husband =p has to have been the slide show. Guess I should have told the person that made it while I was there .....
Maybe it’s just me but every time I see her on the January 2009 cover of GQ I quickly navigate away from whatever web page I’m on. Sorry to everyone who likes this picture but I just think it’s one of the worst pictures I’ve seen on the cover of GQ. The pose is weird and the lighting is imo, downright awful. The other picture of her on the cover of GQ in January 2005(?) is much better.
I received and email on the 22nd…two days ago, that the .com version of a domain which I own the .org and .net of was going to be up for sale soon and they were curious if I was interested in buying it. Cool! I thought…so I clicked the link and filled out their form to be notified when it went up for sale. Got a response; they wanted $997 USD for it. Almost fell out of my chair from laughing so hard.
Next email, yesterday, the 23rd, the domain is going up for sale tomorrow…at $997, so I am still watching but not really interested in buying, that is just too much money. Today I got an email saying that it was for sale for a lower price… $427 minimum offer. Well, that still sucks, so I put down $20 and hit submit anyways.
Few hours later another email…yay! I must be famous. They would sell me the domain, with one year registration for $50 USD. Done, bought, sold, MINE! >< After I bought it I went and looked at the whois information, just out of curiosity and guess what I found. They had bought the domain yesterday, the 23rd.
How can a company offer to sell something that they do not legally own yet? Is there some kind of a law against this? Does not really matter now, the domain is mine mine mine; for 20% of the original cost they wanted. Sometime in the next week or so I will have to finish up the theme, get the majority of the code done in the next few months and see if I can have it done before the next NFL Football season starts in the fall of 2009.
It’s rare for me to post this much; not sure if it will keep up but some things you just have to post about. President Elect Obama is taking George Bush’s bailout plan to a whole new level. This plan generally sucked to begin with and there is no reason that it should ever be implemented. Bailing out companies is a bad idea to start with. How do you decide who needs it, who gets it and who is just fucked screwed? First come first serve would be the only way to do it, when the money is gone…everyone else is sol; except that the government will just create more money to bail them out too.
What are we trying to teach people…that if you spend all your money and make a huge business that can’t even buy toilet paper that it is ok? The government will hook you up! You’re too big to fail! We need you. It might be saying that, or it could be saying spend all your money and make something huge; who gives a flying fuck about being responsible for anything, if you get in trouble…big brother has bail outs! All that we are really teaching people is that if you make something that the government thinks you need to keep making, you can do pretty much whatever you want with your money. Gold plated toilet seats? Sure, why not! We make lots of cars and they’re American so the Government can help us out.
The government should let the companies go bankrupt, fold, fall back into the shadows. If you can’t make a good product that people want to buy enough of to keep your business afloat, either do something different or you are going to fold. Why bailout a company that makes expensive piece of shit cars just because their American when Japan, Korea and The UK all make better, cheaper cars? Teach some responsibility and let companies pay for their mistakes.
About being in pain is when it doesn’t hurt enough. I have two kinds of medication I take for pain: one when it hurts and one when I sometimes wonder if I’m dying. The problem is, I can’t stack them, if I take both bad things happen. So this can cause problems, which one do I take? The one that just takes a little bit of pain away and hope it doesn’t get worse or do I take the ones that I feel almost addicted to after just taking one? Sometimes I wish it would just hurt more so I could take the good meds and go to sleep. There’s only one time I sleep better than with these meds, and that’s when I sleep next to Ana; nothing could ever beat that, ever. So for tonight I’m stuck awake, in not enough pain and I’m really fucking pissed off because the pain is annoying as hell. I just want to curl up in Ana’s arms and go to sleep, it’s the one thing that makes everything else okay. The one thing that never changes. The one thing in this whole world that matters the most, that I can’t live without. The one thing that will always make me smile. I want to go to sleep knowing that when I wake up, I can know that life doesn’t always suck and that I can smile.
I was reading through the news stories on the Google news site as I often do and came across a story that I am not quite entirely sure what to think of. Obviously the story is sad…but I think that the response to the entire situation is completely wrong. Sure the people on the website egging him on was probably the wrong thing to do but he’s threatened to do it before, and most (not all) people who do this are just attention seeking. The people watching probably had no idea what he took, how many, where he lived and maybe not even what his real name was; there is not much they could do to help if / when they thought something was awry. I believe the parents were more at fault in this one; leaving a bi-polar kid with access to large quantaties of opiates and benzodiazepine. Is this a sad story? YES! Should the internet or live webcasts be regulated more because of it? NO! It’s not the job of your ISP or some state or national government to make sure your kid isn’t going to do something stupid while trying to get attention. Someone with bipoloar should not be left with enough medication of that caliber laying around that they could do something like this. It isn’t the failure of a good samaritin to act upon someone who they barely knew doing something that could have (and ended up being) bad. What if every person watching had called the police and told them what they thought was happening and where to go? Can you imagine it now? 25 police officers breaking down a door, storming a house, kicking down another door and finding a person laying there on their bed sleeping after having taken say 50 sugar pills…just for one minute imagine the law suits that would follow that one. Sure the kid will get a talking to by his parents and maybe a psychiatrist but what about the 100 or 200 or 3,000 people who all called the police to report a suicide attemt that was just some kid taking a ton of sugar pills. Logistically it would be a wreck and the credibility of tips about people doing things on a webcast could go to nil with one incident. Parents need to pay attention to their kids and make sure things are really going ok, TAKE SOME FUCKING PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE THINGS THAT MATTER IN YOU LIFE. ><
In socialist Sweden a bucket misses you.
Seriously, redistribution of the wealth isn’t patriotic; I don’t think you could fit more bullshit into a sentence. You know what it really is, not patriotic, it’s theft. I worked my ass off and I got a lot of money so guess what…IT IS MINE; just because someone else didn’t work their ass off too doesn’t mean you can take my money and give it to them. Is this the land where people give everything that they are able and recieve in return what they need? NO.This is the United States where I work and I make myself a ton of money, then I spend it on what I want to. Karl Marx tried the whole giving according to your ability and recieving what you need thing; it didn’t work. Come to the present Mr. Obama, it’s not the 1800’s anymore it’s 2008.