Have a couple places to go, some very important people to see…and a wedding. I love weddings, drinks for everyone. 
See you lurkers after the new year; Happy Christmas and Happy New Year!
About being in pain is when it doesn’t hurt enough. I have two kinds of medication I take for pain: one when it hurts and one when I sometimes wonder if I’m dying. The problem is, I can’t stack them, if I take both bad things happen. So this can cause problems, which one do I take? The one that just takes a little bit of pain away and hope it doesn’t get worse or do I take the ones that I feel almost addicted to after just taking one? Sometimes I wish it would just hurt more so I could take the good meds and go to sleep. There’s only one time I sleep better than with these meds, and that’s when I sleep next to Ana; nothing could ever beat that, ever. So for tonight I’m stuck awake, in not enough pain and I’m really fucking pissed off because the pain is annoying as hell. I just want to curl up in Ana’s arms and go to sleep, it’s the one thing that makes everything else okay. The one thing that never changes. The one thing in this whole world that matters the most, that I can’t live without. The one thing that will always make me smile. I want to go to sleep knowing that when I wake up, I can know that life doesn’t always suck and that I can smile.